Bar Exam Cometh. Day after tomorrow. It's on.

I'm scared... but I can honestly say I've never studied this hard in my life. And that's really all you can ask right?

I'm stressed, but I guess I'm keeping my sense of humor. Still joking with my friends, laughing at our situation and grateful that I have some neat girls around to keep me sane.

I'm emotional, more so than I think I've ever been in my life. The other I told mom that I'm having a hard time remembering everything from the 12 subjects, and she asked me what I'd been doing the past three years, and shouldn't I know everything already? I looked at her, said in a trembling voice, "why would you say something like that??" and burst into tears. Sarah consoled me, and whispered over my shoulder "Mom! Only positive! Nothing negative!" I also got teary this morning when mom said my aunt called from Korea to say she was praying for me, when I went to church and prayed, and then just right now when I read Sarah's blog. I'm just a ball of mush.

All in all, I just want to get over with the damn thing.

Peace out. See you on the other side.

Losing My Mind Part....4? 5? Whatever.

Today I got a ride to school after church from Jenn, leaving my car for little sister to use. I brought my backpack, packed some snacks, and felt all ready for another long ass day of studying.

Unfortunately, I forgot all my books. Which would be ok in some circumstances, but not so much with the work I wanted to get done today. Big thanks to Sarah, who dropped them off at school for me.

I'm really tired.

9 days and counting. The bar cometh.

Happy Birthday to Me!

Today is my birthday. Happy birthday, Me. Despite the pain of studying, I actually had quite a nice day. Church, studying, then a Chipotle dinner with a bunch of law school friends and BFF Ankur, topped off with yogurt at Frozo's. I'm very touched by all the text messages, emails, facebook posts and blog posts dedicated to me :) Thanks for making my day not entirely sucky, and actually fairly pleasant.

Also, happy birthday to Danielle, June and Cynthia.

Things that make me happy

Sunday night, I went to dinner with Monica, Jenn, Colleen, Danielle and Tara, at Danielle's parents restaurant in MenloPark. We spent all night eating, laughing, eating, laughing and taking a break from studying. It was a really fantastic time. Near the end of our dinner, a little old lady, probably in her 60s or 70s stopped at our table. At first I thought she might be scolding us for making so much noise, but then she told us that she didn't mean to be rude, but she thought it was great that we were having so much and laughing so much, and that it reminded her of her and her friends 40 years ago. I was really touched. It was one of the nicest compliments I've heard, and it made me love and appreciate my friends even more. Now on to the other restaurant in SanMateo! Sunday night made me happy.

Today CK, Janice, Isabelle and Yvonne stopped by my house. The girls baked me red velvet cupcakes, and Ck brought me an early birthday present that included snacky snacks and a pedicure gift certificate!!! Girls from church make me happy.

I'm going to bed. That makes me happy.

21 days and counting.

I'm not one to stress out about things that much. No, really. I'm not. I don't really freak out that much, it's usually just a lot of whining and some sleepless nights.

But holy crap. I'm stressed. And scared. And always about to cry.

Luckily, Im too tired to lay awake at night and worry.

Today I took my flask out of my dresser drawer and put it on top of my dresser. As a reminder of what I will be doing in 22 days.

Big Baby

The bar is exam is 23 days away. And I'm feeling it. From now on, no more fun. No more big breaks. No more not bar related stuff. I'm going to eat, sleep, drink bar exam.

One crazy repurcussion of studying for the bar: I'm so emotional. The other day i was reading the news about the freed hostages from Colombia, and I saw these news photos of IngridBetancourt and her kids, and my eyes just welled. Today at church these two missionaries were talking about Sudan, and I could feel myself getting choked up. Little things just make me all misty and emotional, waaaaay more than usual. I guess that's how I deal with stress- I cry.

T-minus 23 days and counting!!!!

Happy 4th of July!

Today I studied a little property, played at the playground, went to McDonalds, got some ice cream, and then saw some fireworks. I was accompanied by my ten year old niece, visiting from Korea. So really, I studied a little property, watched her play on the monkey bars after my pathetic attempt to get across them failed, had a quarter pounder with cheese while she got the happy meal and then watched her scamper around the play area, watched her play in the jump house outside of KyoPo and then ate some ice cream in the KyoPo food court, and attempted to watch fireworks at Central Park but couldn't find parking in time so ended up watching them from a sidewalk on a random street in the area.

We also had some fun with photobooth:




Good times. Tomorrow, I have to study like a crazy person.

Watched "Wanted" tonight. I wanted to see a brainless, mindless, action movie with car chases and action and hot AngelinaJolie. And wow. It was certainly mindless, brainless, full of action and car cases and hot AngelinaJolie. AND hot JamesMcAvoy, whooooeee. That being said, I didn't actually enjoy it that much. It was a little violent and graphic for my taste. And I thought the twists and turns were kind of dumb. But, it was fun to watch.

Still want to see IronMan, IncredibleHulk, WallE.

Losing My Mind part 3

The other day at the gym I walked around the parking lot for five minutes because I completely forgot where I parked my car. All I remembered was that I parked under a tree. There are many little trees. But the parking lot is still fairly small.

Today I stood motionless in front of the gym trying to remember where I parked. It finally hit me after some deep thought and concentration.

My brain is tired.