Down in the Dumps.

I'm always feeling a little guilty these days. When I go to the gym and eat dinner, usually a three hour block in the evenings, I feel guilty that I'm taking out so much time to not study. And then at night, when I try to study a little more, I feel guilty that I'm not more productive.

When I am studying, I don't feel guilty so much as bad. Because I don't understand, I'm not retaining, I'm wasting time, I'm doing poorly.

It's those few moments of joy I have that keep me going. Like, Bar Blogathon. Phil and Jo and maybe Sarah are going to blog every day until I take the bar, out of solidarity. That makes me happy. Also, I just ate a popsicle, which is awesome. And, every day I take a picture of myself on photobooth, as a sort of visual record of my misery. It's kind of fun.

Sigh. Gotta go do some contracts questions and once again face how much I don't know.