Finals start this week, so I've pretty much been spending 12 hours a day in the library. I also cut off access to the school wireless network, so I'm internet-less while I'm at school. It's a drastic step, but drastic times call for drastic measures. I'm getting scared, but I'm just going to study my booty off, and then whatever happens happens.

So besides school, all in all this has been a really rough week. Last Saturday a little girl from my church complained of a headache, and they took her to the hospital where they found she was bleeding in her brain. The half hour surgery ended up talking an hour and a half, and but Sunday evening her parents were told that she was brain dead. They took her off of life support on Tuesday.

All week I've been unable to stop thinking about this little girl, her family, and how incredibly sad it all is. I went to her funeral on Saturday night, and just seeing her mom, dad and little sister broke my heart. There's some consolation in knowing that this little girl is in heaven, and that she lives on through the little kids who were saved by her parents donating her organs. But all that just seems to small compared to the huge grief of her family and of our church family.

As I study for finals, and watch my classmates stress as if these exams are the most important thing in their lives, I'm really aware that school and exams are not be-all-end-all things that I sometimes make it out to be. Life can change in an instant. Shouldn't I have an attitude that reflects that? So i'm grateful for all the blessings in my life- my friends, my family, being able to study and learn. I've done nothing to deserve any of this, it's just a gift. I'm not going to stress out about finals (or at least not stress out too much). I'm going to study by butt off, work hard, and after that, it's out of my control.

Talk about melancholy. But like I said-- it's been a rough week. Please pray for the Cho family.

And I'm off to the library.