New Year's Eve. Trying to figure out what I should do tonight. Every New Year's Eve I usually go to church back home. This is my first New Year's Eve not home, and I've been trying to figure out what people do with themselves on this night. I got invited to a party, and I think I might need to make an appearance. But I'll probably leave early, and celebrate New Year's in my own little way. I've been feeling a little sick lately, and I woke up this morning with a slight sore throat, headache and a cough. Ick. I'm thinking I should just staying in and vegging out sounds great.

Also, every day I read the news and I just get so sad reading about the tsunami. These peoples lives have been devastated, and as I sit at my comfortable desk at work, or at home, it makes me feel so useless. My co workers and I chipped in to donate some money to Doctors Without Borders, but it feels like such a small drop in such a huge bucket. And as I pray, it's hard to feel like it's doing any good. I know God has a plan, but this to me is another one of those instances of what the heck was He thinking?

2004 flew by. It's been filled with weddings, births, deaths, celebration, sorrows. I think this year has made me grow up, and made me realize just how much more growing up I need to do. For everything that I've accomplished this year, there's twice as many things that I wish I could have done better or wish I'd done differently. I've been so blessed, but also so wasteful with those blessings. 2005 is almost here. It's a new year, a new day, a new beginning. I'm excited to see what's in store for everybody. It's going to be a great year. I know it.